alone is what I’ll be forever.

why is it that this wave off loneliness always come crashing on me? Maybe I’m overreacting but this always happens.  I always meet someone and it lasts a while and then its over, just like that.  How am I supposed to trust the other person if I can’t be 100% sure that it will work out.  Its like wondering “When will we break up” all the time.

Everyone wants to be loved but also to be alone sometimes.  Guessing some people are alone for too long



I’m a girl. I don’t want to be alone all the time, but I need to be alone sometimes.  At times
I look terrible and all messed up.  I have my off days, and I’m not the prettiest girl around.  I flip out on people sometimes, but I will always love the people I care about. I get it I’m not perfect but when someone gives me a chance to actually be “me” then I won’t disappoint.  

I’m sorry I’m not perfect enough 


Its out 

My secret is out.  The secret I’ve been keeping for almost a year long.

I had this burden I had to carry and it started to eat me up from the inside out.

It made me very depressed and upset.  I went up to my mother and told her i had smoked and drank.

Tears filled her eyes.  Tears full of disappointment.

Its okay I guess, I got it over with.  I just feel like I disappointed her.

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