alone is what I’ll be forever.
why is it that this wave off loneliness always come crashing on me? Maybe I’m overreacting but this always happens. I always meet someone and it lasts a while and then its over, just like that. How am I supposed to trust the other person if I can’t be 100% sure that it will work out. Its like wondering “When will we break up” all the time.
Everyone wants to be loved but also to be alone sometimes. Guessing some people are alone for too long
I’m a girl. I don’t want to be alone all the time, but I need to be alone sometimes. At times
I look terrible and all messed up. I have my off days, and I’m not the prettiest girl around. I flip out on people sometimes, but I will always love the people I care about. I get it I’m not perfect but when someone gives me a chance to actually be “me” then I won’t disappoint.
I’m sorry I’m not perfect enough
Today, I realised that the moon was the most beautiful thing. Not only because of its beauty; only because you can see it everywhere, and nothing has ever been that close while being so far
My secret is out. The secret I’ve been keeping for almost a year long.
I had this burden I had to carry and it started to eat me up from the inside out.
It made me very depressed and upset. I went up to my mother and told her i had smoked and drank.
Tears filled her eyes. Tears full of disappointment.
Its okay I guess, I got it over with. I just feel like I disappointed her.
music plays a very important role in my life. I listen to music when I’m sad or depressed to cheer me up or in a way to “comfort” me. I mostly listen to indie rock.
when I listen to music on the music channels I feel ashamed, artists mostly sing about sex and money and I personally feel that music is definitely not about sex and money.
2 am, sitting alone at the coffee-table in the dark, writing and aching for you, while you are asleep in your own bed, far from here. Dreaming of someone else
I was your cure, and you were my disease. I was saving you, but you were killing me
I want an opinion if this photo is pretty. Its a photo of my friend I took and she doesn’t know if she likes it. Please reply
almost a year ago I found out my parents are getting a divorce. It was hard seeing that my dad was moving out after 27 years of marriage. a few days after he moved out we heard he has cancer. I thought my life was busy ending. It was the very first time something like this happened in my family.
My mother and I went to the hospital a few times. The first time we went the “other woman” was at the hospital. I almost lost it. We went into his room and everything around me got dark. It felt like someone was closing doors in front of me and I’m going into this dark world. I said to my mother that I have to leave and the nurse took me out the room to relax.
I never understood why that happened, I guess seeing him being taken care of by a woman who isn’t my mother really hit me hard. The second time we went I was alone in the room with him and he was really weak, I really thought he wasn’t going to make it. I asked everyone i knew to just pray. The next day he was like a new person, I was so thankful for that.
We recieved phonecalls from unknown numbers when he was in the hospital and thought that someone is following us, we had an idea of who it could be, but no one would believe us right.
Everything got very overwhelming, in the first few months of this year I was very emotional about everything that happened and one of my friends told me to go see a therapist. I went to a few sessions and felt like it doesn’t help so much it was more of a session where i pretended to be happy rather then to actually talk about how i feel and so on.
Slowly but surely I’m busy accepting everything happening in my life.
this is my very first blogging experience
I’m not an expert so I hope my first attempt is good enough.
I’m sitting on my bed and the weather is so cold, it feels like everything around me is covered with a layer of ice. everything i touch is ice cold. My sister gave me the idea of starting my own blog. I took a look at a few blogs so i decided i’m choosing wordpress.